Health

Even though health should be one of the most important things to me; it's not. I would not claim to be healthy. I struggled with anorexia for a long time and even now when I consider myself 'recovered' I still do not eat enough on some days. Most days.However, I have improved a lot and I am proud of myself. 

On Thursday, I had blood drawn to get some tests done and guess what? I have low cholesterol; like, so low that it's not a good thing. I didn't even know it was a negative thing to have extremely low cholesterol. I kind of thought that was the point. But apparently, it is not. Additionally, low cholesterol is associated with depression, anxiety, and cancer. Wonderful. 

Also, another red flag appeared on my results, I'm overweight. How I have low cholesterol but am overweight, I will never know. But, unfortunately, by my BMI's standards, I weigh too much. my BMI should be like 24.9 and I think it's 25.7 or something like that.And boy, that is a trigger for my anorexic tendencies. I am trying very hard to not let it get to me and to just ignore that sick feeling I get when I think about eating and food and gaining more weight. 

I want to be healthy. I need to start making better decisions for my health. 

In the new year, I'm going to be giving up meat. I'm going to try to be a vegetarian.