Well, here we are again. I've stumbled across this blog after forgetting it. Years have passed this time. I cannot believe I've left these pages abandoned for so long. The weirdest part is that so much time has sped on by but nearly nothing has changed this time.
I'm still in a loving relationship with the girl that I moved in with in 2020. I'm still working as a GI Technician at the same job. I'm still feeling lost and without direction or goals.
However, good things have come into my life. I've made wonderful, hopefully lasting, friendships at this place of employment and I am able to be an honorary aunt twice over. I started reading again and exercising and doing puzzles. In my personal life I am mostly happy.
It's my professional life that I find so lacking. I am so troubled by my job that it is starting to make it unbearable to be there. I am desperate to find another job but I don't know where to start looking or what kind of job I would even like to get. On top of that I have to worry about how much I am being paid because every job out there seems to be offering a rate that is so low it is laughable. How am I supposed to survive on $15 when I can barely pay my bills at $19.
I want something fulfilling. I would like to work from home, ideally. I wouldn't mind making some phone calls but I don't want to be in a job that makes me take 200 calls a day and it soul crushing. I've done the mind-numbing, corporate bullshit where you have to shut down your ability to have empathy for your fellow human and I cannot do that again. It made me lose my mind.
Well, I'll check back when I remember next.
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